Q: My real problem is i cant have peace with my appearance. i cant love that and i often hate it. im short and fat. actually the real problem is my height i cant accept it. and you know it is more 20 years that i practice alot of cults of mysticism and spirituality. im Iranian and in my country there is a rich culture of spirituality. i started with them. then i read kastaneda books and i fell in love with toltec culture and i practice that for some years. i reviewed my life alot of time and i found all the memory and events that led me to hate my appearance. i did alot of Indian version too. i meditate i do yoga, chakra therapy and every thing that you can imagine. i took a lot of courses and did alot of positive thinking and i even practiced the cults in my country that try to remove inorganic being from people. through years i had alot of success in alot of other things in spirituality i even found alot of miraculous power in me. like healing and alot of absurd powers like fortunetelling or reading people and alot more. but i couldn't accept my height. i even started to grow myself by intent and it was unsuccessful. through these years i helped alot of people to accept themselves, to grow themselves, to change their life and .... but in reality i couldnt do anything good for myself. one day one of my spiritual freinds who is good teacher of spirituality told me metaphorically that you can spin the wheel of fortune for others but it doesn't matter because you cant do anything for yourself. and he was right. so i want to know what should i do to accept my appearance? i really suffer from that.
again thank you and god bless you sorry for my english that is not my first or second language.
A: Thank you for sharing your deepest emotional pain with me. It takes courage and I appreciate it so I am going to share my deepest truth with you.